It Hurt Me That I Didn’t

I didn't trust the sun to tell me it's morning

or the gallop of my heart to confirm you were gone

I didn't trust my eyes to watch you walk away

so I stood in the pool of them ready to drown

I didn't trust the words from your mouth

so I settled between the lines

called it a boundary

I didn't trust the mirror to show what I knew

so I stayed months denying what reflects back

I didn't trust the night or the way the moon knew to find me

someone

you

someone

must have cast a compass in the sky

with the dust of my footprints in its magnetic field so I always am North

I didn't trust fields