In times such as ours

I’m going to lie like a rug

when you chase serendipity

instead of choosing us

I’m going to say

“It’s okay”

 “I’m fine”

 “I understand”

and all other assurances that allow you

Place one foot in front of the other

Until you’re an ocean away from the threat of my hugs 

and other desires you haven’t allowed escape my lips. 

I’m going to lie and not give anything away.

I won’t tell you my knees are weak 

and prepped for submission or

how I now know what butterflies are 

Because the way you say my name gives those caterpillars wings 

and I, a willing host, 

swallowed to keep them down,

so in some way, you never escape me

even if you're walking away now